sometimes when I look back at pictures of my friends & I, I dont know if I should laugh, cry or be proud of myself. you know the feeling of looking at how pretty a person is, or how sweet their smile is. Or maybe even how good they look like, or maybe how smart they actually are. Sometimes you just feel that they are the luckiest people in the whole wide world cause they've got everything that you've always wanted to have? Does it make you feel like your no where near & most of the times you feel like a real loser that you just feel like crying or running away from everything?

maybe my low self confidence has really affected me more than I thought it would. I never ever feel contented with what Allah has given me, which maybe explains my low self confidence. It could be a lesson his trying to make me learn. But no doubt, Im more than happy to have the most beautiful gift of all, which comes in many ways if I see from my point.

Whats important now, are the opportunites that are coming to me, the career path, the degree courses, to family to my boyfriend to my friends. Maybe just everything. Allhamdulillah, Amin. I just pray, through all the obstacles I have yet to face, there still is a smooth sail.