I cant help but to cry seeing myself being like this. Everyday when I browse through your photos, I just wished a miracle would happen. I just wished I wouldnt have decided on what I ever did. Though we had our disputes, I cant seem to run away from the thoughts of you even in the midst of doing something. It feels different. I just hope your reading this. And if you do, and you know who you are, I bet the first thing youre gonna do is to laugh at me. He didnt do anything wrong, but its just that I miss you. I miss the feeling arround you.

" I promise myself I wanna make you my wife. I love you too much to ever let you go, to ever see you love someone else. Let me prove to you, let me show you what I am capable of. Cause I just want you to know, how much I care, how much I dont want you to go. Thanks honey for giving me this last shot, cause with this shot, I am gonna make sure that you'll never have to turn back. I love you"

By far, that has been the sweetest thing Fendi has ever said to me. But then again, lets all not hope. We're just gonna help each other along the way. InsyaAllah, everything will turn out just fine.